My family of origin was shame-based, meaning everything revolved around toxic shame and fear. Today my sexuality allows me to be dignified. I let go of shame and feel powerful. It’s too hard to feel shame and self-love at the same time. I choose self-love. This self-love and dignity permeates other non-sexual parts of my life such as work and friends where I am learning to relate more compassionately towards myself and others.
Most of my life too, I’ve been out of touch with my woman-strong feminine side. My dad is a chauvinist and he treated my mom, sister and I like second class citizens. Of course I picked up on this and carried it into my adult years. I see it as the sort of weak side of femininity or false femininity. Today as an open sexual person I am positively feminine and I am learning how to express it in healthy and apparent ways.
I am on a journey, a path, that is constantly evolving. I am desirable, loving, strong, powerful and beautiful. I look forward to heightened sexual awareness, ever changing, ecstatic, delicious.